basics again

sorta going back to basics again if only for my sake. am i going toward something of nourishment like the mother or am i fleeing a danger (like the mother in modern applications :)?

its those first 2 systems whether we deal through RAW or Angel Tech. The first is the Freudian mother complex and the second the father complex. The third of course is the conceptual, the map making, or the time altering. These first 2 are so crucial as to our relationship with ourselves; that is how we mother and nurture ourselves and then our relationships with the world around us, with the wider community.

I tend to think of who i was in the neighbourhood growing up and how much that person is a part of my identity. In astrology it is the 3rd House. the neighourhood. Mine is ruled by Leo, by the sun. The style in which i approach my community is as king, leader. I have that precocious little boy who doesn't acknowledge rightful authority, he is the little boy i approach the world as. That is 2nd system.... How do i shit on the world? How do I leave my mark? Tying it in with the astrological model, it seems i think my shit don't stink. It is my right as ruler to shit around the community, the neighbourhood, the school yard, the class room. All these places are 3rd house.

I excel in my place of learning. Leo children are good learners. The 2nd system for me is one i was imprinted by my father and my father is a very strong dour, stoic, solid man. And very much a man i was imprinted by. Not someone with a dominant boyish side. A gemini sun he is, which is my first house... maybe rules my first system in how i mother and nurture myself. I am seeing that i was built to survive but that is how i see it as i am seeing me and i know how to make me work.

Leo and gemini in sextile tends to work and then I start seeing the map as i put the relationship up that the two archetypes share with one another. the map making or the time bending and that to some extent come in to the 3rd House on an astrological chart. Of course astrology is a high school thing in Angel Tech. I believe it is 7th grade.

Astrology is a great map making system and naturally occurs as an octive above the third gear or grade. That is map making or tool making. Containing and using time to make our constructs.

So if I go from nurturing myself, to how do i get on with the others, then i go to what am i building and how am i building or creating. Building is a more capricorn word and create a more leo word